Nobodysfool10490

Deliriums of a star-crazed girl, so in need of everything that nothing can satisfy. My heart is much bigger than my body's proportions allow, causing an ache and ripping in my bones. So much bigger on the inside than emotions appear on the surface, by the time every sick fuck in this world starts to build a wall, I have already finished a labryth for lovers, sheilding my vulnerability with passages and dead ends of thoughts. You will never understand my true madness, you'll only get lost and frusterated with each turn of the maze, wondering if there even is a soul at the end of this.  It's there, I swear. I'm human, I swear. I'm just scared.

Familiar scents of salt and freedom whip through the air, and my soul is torn in all directions of the sea. Currents rip me from one extreme to the next, and I'm still here. Though there are times when I feel not even the sky can contain, the ocean brings me back onto solid ground. What most drown in, gives me stability. Waves crashing on the shore from all different places, but all ending at the same desolate beach to meet their demise. The waves were all part of something bigger than they could've dreamed and laying here, at the mercy of the water and warm grain sand. . .I've never been happier. The Chaos of the elements makes

I'm grazing over our old pictures together the ones I didn't burn and we're laughing, and we're happy. I'm humming the notes to our favorite songs but this time I'm singing alone It's been so long since I've been as whole I once was then. Even if it was all in lies, even if it was all in ignorance. I dont want you anymore. I am different now. But I want what we had then closer than blood, closer than bones to my heart our skeletons, our souls were entertwined I miss hearing that it will be alright once more but was anything ever really okay? I miss being able to cry in front of someone. I miss that night you wiped away my tear

To be beautifully broken with the world in your hands means nothing when you can't even grasp or hold onto your life, that which those wandering eyes seem so fascinated with you can sing and dance the night away- and cuddle til your lover leaves but no amount of human touch, will calm the loneliness raging inside and you'll live so fast searching frantically for something to complete you your other half. but completion can come from anything if you put your mind to it you just have to need it to carry on, then you will become whole. Sex, drugs and rock n roll can suffice they can take you away from pain they can take you so far